Let’s talk mental health.
My emotions and mental well-being has been very up and down since, well…. I gained all my weight to the scale tipping weight of 210 right before I gave birth to Maddox.
I hated myself. I felt a heart wrenching pain when I would try to find something flattering to wear for my husband, only to end up on the floor in my closet crying or cursing at myself. Nothing fit. I couldn’t button my jeans. I was still wearing maternity pants 7 months after I had Maddox weight at 204 around Christmas. I avoided photos with my family or would get mad at photos my husband took of me candidly with our kids. It seemed impossibly to break the cycle of emotional warfare I placed upon myself for so long.
My anger and frustration would spike and I found myself getting upset over nothing or lashing out my insecurities on my husband, who frankly, never deserved that…. not once.
I would question to myself, “How could my children love me when I am such a failure? How could they ever be proud to stand by me in public when I can’t even look at my own self?” Etc.
My daughter, 6, was my guiding light. That unconditional love… she knew when I was hurting, as she would hold my face and tell me that I am the best mommy in the world. I never wanted for my 6 year old to have to pick me up… that should be my job as it relates to her.
We’ve been through a lot together. Her emotional maturity and compassion is like nothing I have ever seen. She is… and has been… my reason to get back up and never quit.
When I started the Ketogenic Diet, I had no clue what the hell I was doing… some days I still feel that way. I had to completely shut down my bad eating habits and learn to calm down…. slow down.
I started to feel crappy with some KetoFlu symptoms, but in a way… it helped me not think about all the emotional pain.
As time went on, I started getting into a steady routine and felt a difference mentally and emotionally. I wasn’t so quick to anger. I hadn’t recalled the last time I cried. I felt emotionally lighter and a smile started to rest upon my face on a regular basis. I had mental clarity in a way that I began to wonder if I could start to consider backing down/off certain medications.
I felt good. I was dressing up more, taking time on my hair, taking more pride in my appearance. I am beginning to see and feel like the Meagan I have always been and have been searching for, for so long.
Do I contribute these positive strides in my mental health and emotional strength to this Ketogenic Lifestyle change, YES. I’m eating more clean and I’m not looking to food for comfort when I am at my low emotional points. I also have been saying positive things to myself each day…. what I know I am worth. That I am worthy. I am enough. I have always been enough…
I have been trying to inspire and motivate others… including my family, friends, coworkers and even complete strangers. I find that positivity is contagious ….. so is negativity. I was drowning in my own depression and anxiety that I couldn’t swim out of it…. until I hit my breaking point and decided I was done feeling sorry for myself. I was tired of making excuses and depriving myself of so many opportunities that I had let pass me by.
I’m a survivor. I’m a fighter. I am enough.
Has the Ketogenic Diet helped you emotionally and/or mentally? Have you experienced change in how you respond to your environment and social surrounding… or even when you are by yourself?
Please share, if you’d like.
Thank you for allowing me to continue to share my experiences and journey with you all.